Today,Tomorrow,Forever.....

 I remember,in all slam books I have filled till date,there,at the very last,is a line,reading"Dated......" and invariably,I,like many others would fill the gaps with the coveted word, "Forever....".
 FOREVER.It happened to be a very secure refuge of the insecurity-ridden hearts that were ours.....the word forever.It was as if that one word would in itself hold together all of us who were,it would never let the chains loose.....but,it seems,what we failed to notice was powders of rust making their way up and up.....
  And then.Then started the metamorphosis of forever to TOMORROW....our tomorrow,my tomorrow and your tomorrow,it was no longer about forever;no longer about what we had but we wanted to have;no longer about what we loved but about what we had to love.....the tomorrow was here.And how.
  We missed the rust that claimed forever,and we failed to foresee the storm that was tomorrow.And there it was....hitting us full in the face,destroying our cocoons...leaving us to fight the battle,unseen,unprepared.Like every storm that hits a coast,the storm of tomorrow took with it all the sand-dunes of hopes and promises....all the castles of dreams and dosti.....the house of cards was down.Never to go up.
     But now,at this moment,I realise,I can neither blame Tomorrow,nor Forever.They did what they had to do,its just that we did not.We built the sand-dunes too near the sea,the castles too frail and the house of cards much in the way of the wind.They,but,could never have been for Forever.....
   So Today,what I am going to do is look into what I have now,and will build up all that has been lost in the quest for something beyond.......and I will make this TODAY last FOREVER......all through the upcoming TOMORROW.I Will.

I Belong......

Manipal....the world I belong to...now.Time and again when I talk to people from the world I used to belong to.....they will be asking the same question.....do you like it there?Are you happy there?And I say,"Yes.Of course!The food is great,the hostels are good,teachers are fine....what more would I want?"
   Even sometimes when I think,this seems a very logical answer to give...I have everything I want,so why would I not be happy?But at the end of the day,if I want to do justice to myself....I ask do I really want to be here?And then,I cannot fool myself anymore.
   I belong to a world that has more bimbettes than girls,a world which has more shallowness than depth,a world which is more pretty than it is beautiful.All this time,throughout my modest upbringing,I have come to respect,to love people for what they are,to stand by some values,some virtues,"behenji" as I may be called.But isnt "behenji" better than a cupboard full of brands and an empty conscience?Is it not better than judging people by their monthly exenditure rather than their concern for you....but again,concern is "nagging"!
      Till now I have lived a life behind closed doors...and the windows have never been enough to experience the wide horizon....now,standing in an open field full of plastic blossoms...my heart aches for that natural drifting fragrance....it was not enough then,but it is all I want now.
     Difficult,considering,that the world doesnt go round the way I want it to!But I will keep trying.....trying my best to be the person I believe I should be....till the day those same people get a new person to emulate....ME.